I have always wanted to be the sort of person who extends grace to those in need. Who stops at the red light and gives my cash to the homeless vet. But something gets in my way.
I like to pretend it is cynicism, or knowledge of the brokenness of men and women, that causes me to hold back. But that is simply not true. It is selfishness. Pure and simple. My time, my money, my convenience, my schedule, my everything is more important than that man on the side of the road.
And yet I read in the New Testament that the difference between those who receive a Well done from their Father in heaven and those who receive a DEPART FROM ME is not their theology. It’s not their tithing. It’s not their tax bracket. It’s what they DO with their time, their money, their convenience, their schedule, their everything.
So what can I do, in light of this recognition that I am all about me? I only have two choices:
Move on, aware of my narcissism
I can act as though nothing has changed. Live the same life I have always lived, only with eyes wide open about the nature of my heart. I can accept that I am all about me, and walk on.
Change, a little bit, every day from this day forward
I can fight the fight against the evil that is within my heart. The whiny self that cries for attention. For love. For time. For stuff. And I can give the best of all I have to those who truly have need.
I choose to change. I know there will be days I fall back into a self-love, and forget about everyone else. But I don’t want the legacy of my life to read like this: “He loved himself well and often.”
I don’t quite know what this is going to look like for me moving forward, but I know this—I need to get over ME.
What can you do today to get over yourself?