I am excited to share my little piece of the Interwebs today with Pablo Ellsworth. Pablo is a blogger, speaker, and teacher. His mission is to draw close to the heart of Daddy-God by living out the God’s adventure for his life. Through writing, speaking, and loving, Pablo strives to mentor others to …
Three Things We Always Control
We all have control issues – we want to be in control of everything. So much so that when we face a circumstance we cannot control, we experience anger or resentment or feel trapped. And yet, we are not helpless before any circumstance. We have so many choices still within our grasp. We Own our …
The Weight of HERE
Sometimes the weight of here is just too much. The burden of the moment nearly breaks my back. I cry up in confusion and anger to my God, “WHY? Have I offended you? Do you love me this little? Where are you in this moment, here, right now?” My here is overwhelming right now, as I write at 3:47 am …
When my Teacher was Dead Wrong
Update: My mom read this story and added some more detail which I had forgotten. I have put it into the narrative now. It was a Wednesday afternoon in my sixth grade class, about twenty minutes before school got out. I went up to Ms. Strauss and said, “I really don’t feel good. Can I go to the …
When God Sucker Punches You
I couldn’t even believe what I was hearing. The medical diagnosis was shocking. Something I was not prepared for emotionally. I’d just been sucker punched. I could look back on the last few years and see how the symptoms fit what had been happening in my life. That didn’t mean it made sense for me …
Why I’m Proud to Wear My Superman Shirt
Photo Credit: Klobetime (Creative Commons) It was a hot summer Arizona day. The smell of barbecue burgers was making everyone wish it was lunchtime already. The joyful screams of children playing in the swimming pool filled the air as the adults lounged twenty feet away, enjoying the respite and the …
Graffiti & Family Fun Time For the Win?
I declared 2013 the year to overcome, but what does it mean to overcome? The truth is, I don’t really know, but I will share as I learn, and I hope you will do the same. Yesterday I learned that overcoming means facing multiple fears at the same time: fear of extreme dirtiness, fear of 5K …
There is No Plan Q, Not Even a Plan B
I have been dealing with epilepsy for 4 months, averaging 2 seizures a day. I expend energy every day trying to find the imaginary pattern to my seizures. Do I have a seizure when I sleep less? Does it happen when I sleep in too late? What if I drink too much milk? What about coffee in the …
Lost Memories
Part of the struggle with being epileptic is that memories just disappear sometimes. No warning. No pattern. No rhyme. No reason. No hope of regaining them. They are just gone. Like a very targeted amnesiac. This can be infuriating, especially for a person like myself who (used to) pride …
Ghosts of Christmas Past, Hope For Christmases Future
I was probably eight years old, and we were at my uncle’s house for Christmas. All of us kids were in my cousin’s room. I wish I could say we were having a great time, anticipating who would get what presents, or when the hot chocolate would be ready, or if we were going to get a visit from Santa …
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The Devil’s Favorite Words
As we come up on Thanksgiving, I’m still in a pretty heavy place because of my seizures, but I got some insight into why this evening. It’s because I have been listening a bit too much to the devil’s favorite words – What If? I have my first neurology appointment on Monday, and a lot could change …
Returning to the Scene of the…Seizure
Last summer we got season passes to the local waterslide park. It was loads of fun, and everyone really enjoyed being able to go once or twice a week, until Cynthia had a seizure about two stories up on the stairs to a large waterslide. Then things got weird for me. Every time I got to the landing …